(So Shae is having some writer’s block problems so I’m taking her place this week. So I promise I actually closed my eyes and just typed when I wrote this poem, I was really pissed off when I was writing it and it still came out as an equality themed poem. I think it’s my women’s study class that’s doing this to me….. And on to the poem~)

A Helpless World

 

Spinning and tilting, you crash against the wall like a tidal against a shore,

You break my cage and release me into the world,

Leaving me alone,

Frantically destroying,

Unsure what else to do in this foreign place that you’ve left me in.

 

Do you not see?

I am a lost soul in this helpless world.

Yes a world that is helpless,

Unable to stop its own ways,

To stop fighting among each other like cats and dogs.

We are all the same.

Weaknesses,

Strengths,

Sins and purity.

 

We each cry our own salty tears,

A cliché that deserves to be told because,

Not one tear is more salty than another,

We all cry,

Laugh,

Love,

Living in a distant land that we call our home,

But is this green and blue and yellow and red, every color of the rainbow,

Are these not all our colors? The colors we live in.

The colors we believe in.

 

Why would you release me?

I am not happy here,

I was happy living in my hole,

Not seeing the true nature of anything,

Breathing in the salty sea like my life depended on it.

You broke me free,

Gave me air.

And I didn’t want it.

 

This world is only a cloud of darkness,

The water may be dark in the depths but that is only because we have not taken the time,

Time to look, and look hard,

Into the depths of the ocean that will reflect what truly hides in our souls.

 

It reflected my soul,

And it showed me I belonged with the clear transparency of a world that won’t hurt.

It showed me that to be happy I must leave this upside down, discriminating, horribly

Terrifying world,

And fight the darkness,

To see the truth of life.

 

And I saw the truth.

I saw that everything was a lie,

Crushing your lungs,

Breaking your bones,

Destroying your will and soul.

The world we live in today only shows the masks,

Fog covering up the truth as we pretend that we are all okay.

But we are not.

We are all damned creatures.

Maybe that is what unites us.

The damnation of our souls,

The evil in our hearts.

The desire to burn and harm everything we hold dear.

 

Yes, I see now,

It is the hatred in our blood that boils that unites us.

A horrible truth we will never accept,

Forever living in the fog,

Under the cover of masks.

 

We will never be united by peace and goodness.

Never will we all see that we are all sinners, whether that means

You have sinned against the god you believe in,

Or sinned against the people you love.

Sinners, it is just a word,

Not a religion.

And it is what we all our, for we all make mistakes.

 

And so we unite in the consequences of mistakes,

Instead of unite in the forgiveness sin brings.

© Ashlea Gable, 2012